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Damian Will Eat Your Soul

I Was an Ill-Tempered Sea Bass

When last I left you, I was stressed out (and so, apparently, were some of you after reading about my adventures).

Rest assured, it gets better!

My appointment with the nutritionist was lovely, even thought she did recommend cutting dairy out of my diet & suggesting that I might have a dairy intolerance. I said I would give it a go for six weeks. No cheese. No butter. (No milk or ice cream or yogurt, either, but already avoid those things.)

Then, I drove BACK to the pharmacy.

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You may remember from yesterday’s lesson that Portland is divided into 5 quadrants (I know, that doesn’t make sense, but it’s all true). The dividing line between East & West is the Willamette River. There are a lot of bridges here in Portland (totally typed Poetland – that’s kinda funny). Many of them are draw bridges, as we have a decent amount of ship traffic. Some of them are just super high (the freeway bridges & the St. Johns Bridge). I have a nearly debilitating fear mild phobia about accidentally driving off a really high bridge & plunging to my death. Also, I once heard that the guy who designed the Fremont Bridge won’t drive over it because it was not built to his specifications & he feels that it is unsafe, much like that bridge in Minneapolis that fell down a few years ago.

Because I live in a town with a river and a bunch of bridges, I have worked hard to get over my phobia. I will drive over the St. Johns Bridge (I get through it by pretending that we’re very, very low), and the Marquam Bridge (especially on the lower deck).

So, when I tell you that my journeys last Friday resulting in me driving on the Fremont Bridge THREE TIMES – twice on the high upper deck where I could just careen into space & DIE! -  and the St. Johns Bridge three times (less stressful, but still), I want you to know that I was, indeed, feeling even more stressed out than just the anxiety of being constantly late can cause).

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Fortunately, when I got back to the pharmacy, they’d obtained my insurance information & were able to give me my drugs right away. That was pleasing. Unforunately, it was too late. I was already cranky.

When I got home, the architect was already there. BUT, had he psychically intuited my mood and made a martini to ease the stress? NO! He was on the bike trainer. Exercising. And he did not immediately hop off & offer to sooth the savage beast (me) with offers of martinis and fancy cheeses.

Bastard, right? I told Facebook that I was, indeed an ill-tempered sea bass (and some people hinted that I might have posted that AFTER drinking, when alas! that’s just how my mind works, regardless of amount of alcohol imbibed).

After he got off the trainer, I made him go out for pizza with me, because, well, I’d already had cheese at lunch – might as well have a last hurrah, right?

Two slices & a couple beers later, and I was less ill-tempered.

The rest of the weekend was good, if a little less dramatic. Saturday morning, I headed over to Emily’s for some garden talk & breakfast, then went to the eye doctor for new glasses, and spent the afternoon hoeing. My shoulders & back are pretty sore from all that work!

Sunday I went for a lovely run in Forest Park (4.5 miles! New distance record!) and then the architect & I made another batch of IPA.

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Yesterday was mustard making & a foot therapy appointment (turns out that instead of a mild supination, which I’ve always had on both feet, the right (surgery) foot is now pronating. So my left foot rolls out, and my right foot rolls in. Add to that my extreme hyperextension, and you pretty much have a recipe for running injury (and that probably explains why running has caused so my stress on my muscles/ligaments lately).

My PT exercises for the next two weeks include (this is not a lie): practicing standing up with straight legs. Apparently, the therapist was not surprised that I’m clumsy – how could I be anything but when I can’t even straighten my legs without practice! I am also to practice keeping my feet flat on the ground. It’s a wonder I’m ever upright at this point! (Oh, sometimes I wish my parents didn’t read this blog…I have a comment here.)

ANYWAYS! Now we are all caught up. Today (Tuesday), I have plans! And, I will take pictures.  And there will be some serious domestic badassery going down in the house (hizzle?).

Can you believe it’s been two months?

Exactly 2 months ago today, I got my boot off.

Since then, I have frequently been frustrated with the amount of exercise I’ve had.

I try to remind myself that being as active as I am at just 3 months post surgery isn’t too shabby. I’m running (well, c25k-ing) twice a week. Yoga-ing at least once a week. I’ve been swimming and on the bike trainer, and basically getting some exercise.

The foot still doesn’t like to wear regular shoes too often. I spend a lot of time in my running shoes. So much that I’m pretty sure I’m going to need to get a new pair soon, even though they don’t have a ton of running miles on them.

The feeling is starting to return to my feet. For a long time, my big toe was completely numb, and I had limited sensation on the top and sides of my feet. That is definitely getting better, albeit slowly.

The scar is mostly invisible, except when my feet get really warm (post shower, for instance), and then it’s angry.

The swelling is definitely less – I can see a difference, even if no one else can (not that I’m randomly polling people for their opinion on my feet).

The only really weird thing? My toenails on my right foot aren’t growing. I don’t think I’ve cut my toenails since before the surgery. I’m assuming this is related to the nerve damage, and that eventually they’ll start growing again, but until then, it’s just weird.

It still gets tired easily. Today I ran, then walked to & from the breakfast spot, then brewed some beer. By the time I was done making beer, my foot was done with this whole standing/walking thing. I am ready for it to suck it up & just deal.

I am still doing couch to 5K (started week 3 today), but am quickly getting tired of this. I think I’ll try to get through week 4 of this nine-week program and then re-evaluate. Maybe at that point, I’ll be ready to just RUN!  The good news is that I’m getting faster…today, the running portions averaged about 10:35 min. miles, so I’m hoping that continues to get faster as I go longer!

Reverb Writing Prompt #14: Appreciate

Prompt: Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?

Author: Victoria Klein
27 Things to Know About Yoga
@victoriaklein

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This is easy! In the last year, I have come to appreciate my body and what it can do for me. I spent a lot of time having to take care of the rogue foot, and I realized how much I had taken for granted everything I was doing previously.

Oh, I want to go run 5 miles? Okay. No big.

I’d like to go for a bike ride? That’s pretty easy. Shoes, helmet, padded shorts, go!

I want to wear stilettos and meet some friends for happy hour? Which pair do I choose?

All that changed when Damian arrived. Shoes were difficult. Running was difficult. Towards the end of summer, even standing was difficult at times.

Now, as I’m slowly making my way back to previous levels of activity (I was on the trainer for 30 minutes last night, bitches!), I am realizing how happy this all makes me. I am not going to lie, people, when I finished my walk/run last Friday (at which point I ran 1 mile, in case you missed that news), I was so ecstatic with my 1 mile that I almost cried. Seriously. It was close to the level of emotion I had when finishing the marathon (although, fortunately, not the same level of pain & exhaustion).

The swimming has been a revelation.

And tonight? A real-live yoga class.

I am sure that sometime in the future, I will go back to taking all of the things for granted that my body can do effortlessly (most of the time), but I am working really hard at appreciating it all right now.

Reverb Writing Prompt #10: Wisdom

(I have been slacking so three writing prompts for the price of one today.)

Prompt: Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?

Author: Susannah Conway
Unravelling
@photobird

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I think that both the wisest and hardest decision I made this year was to back off marathon training, take it easy on my foot & schedule surgery.

I have trouble with backing off and taking care of myself. I have a problem with not meeting stated goals. And I have a major issue with my body telling me that I will not do something that I have planned on doing – something that has spreadsheets and calendars.

But – I did it. I backed off the running (after a painful & slow 15K and an even more painful & slow 10K). I dropped my marathon to a half marathon. Then a 5K. Then, I became an official spectator.

I took it easy all summer. Backing off workouts when I needed to. Wearing sensible shoes. Still pushing when I thought I could.

And here I am, almost 10 weeks post surgery, and, with the exception of the way my entire body hurts because of my mile of running (interspersed with walking) on Friday (i.e. two whole days ago), I am feeling pretty good. My foot still doesn’t fit into too many pairs of shoes, and probably won’t for a few months, but at least now I am on the mend. I can start pushing back slowly and am now someone who can build up the running instead of having to dial it back.

NEWS!

Before we get to today’s writing prompt, I have news!

I just a) finished my final project/paper for my project management course. Three week school break! Woot!

and, more importantly, I think, just got back from the gym.

Where I was on the treadmill for 40 minutes.

I went about 2.3 miles.

One of those miles was at a pace I would (generously, perhaps, but still) call running.

That’s right, my bitches. The gazelle is back (and only 9.5 weeks post surgery. Life is good. Suck it, Damian!)